Sunday, October 28, 2007
Monday, October 22, 2007
God has been dealing with me with my worry and anxiety issues. Tonight after using Stumble, I can across a site called God's Yellow Pages. I was thinking about my mom and her anemia and my thyroid issues, so I stopped my Googling and decided to go back to God's word for guidance on all these worries and stress instead of taking matters into my own hands again and trying to find out everything by researching. It is so hard for me, a self proclaimed control freak, to let go sometimes, especially when it comes to worrying about those that I love and hold dear to my heart. When I clicked on worry on God's Yellow Pages, I found these verses which are familiar to me but I guess God felt I needed them tonight. I praise Him for speaking to me even when I have to be continuously spoken to with the same thoughts because my human mind still struggles. I praise God for His victory over my worry and anxiety even now and I ask for continued Prayers in this area for me. I also continue to request your prayers for my mom and her health as well as for my CT scan on Thursday. Bless you all for your continued faithfulness in serving our precious Savior.
Matthew 6:19-34 (King James Version)
25Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
26Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
27Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
28And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
29And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
31Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
34Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
If you are out there reading this blog... please leave me a comment and let me know. And please, help me get more readers by passing this blog address along to a friend or two. I don't want to glorify myself, that's not what this blog is about. I just want to glorify God and make even more blog friends.
Love To All...
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember! Don't send a message, leave a comment on here. Next, re-post this in your notes and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty cool (and funny) to see the responses
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
I come to you with a very tired mind and a heavy heart. As you know, I have been very worried about my mom. That has consumed me for the past 3 weeks. I wouldn't have it any other way because I love my momma with all my heart and soul. But, I am stressed out quite a bit. To add to everything, I have been going through some tests with my thyroid. They found that it was low right before mom got sick and I was put on Synthroid 25 mg. I have been taking that for 3.5 weeks now and I had an ultrasound done on my thyroid 2 weeks ago. The results came in today and I went to the ARNP to find out what was going on. They found several cysts on my thyroid and diagnosed me with polycystic disease. I asked if having it meant that I would have the same thing on my ovaries and she told me that it didn't necessarily mean that, it just meant that I have them on the thyroid. But, since they did find those, to be safe I will be undergoing a CT scan (I should find out when in the next few days) to see if they are suspicious. If the scan comes back showing hot or cold nodules (I'm not really sure what all this means but I will be after some Googling) then they will biopsy them to make sure they are benign. She told me not to stress and worry and that she was just wanting to be sure. Obviously, I am stressed and worried. I am thankful to God to have such a good ARNP who is very aware of what all needs to be looked at and checked on. Even though I am worried, I know this is in God's hands. Please pray that all my tests come back well and that we can get this all taken care of. Also, would you please pray that this will not affect my chances of getting pregnant. The thought of that just overwhelms me at the moment. Motherhood and pregnancy is something that my heart desires so intensely to go through. I trust God in this entire situation and I know that His will will be accomplished, just please pray for me through this entire ordeal. Also, please share your experiences, if you have had any, with thyroid issues. I love each of you and I thank you in advance for your kind words and prayers.
Ps. Continue to pray for my mom. She is doing a whole lot better and she (and all of us) give God all the glory for that! Also, remember my dad who has been really stressed and worried about her through this whole thing. I worry about him pushing himself too much, too.
Monday, October 15, 2007
11 ¶ And that, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep: for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed.
12 The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light.
13 Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying.
14 But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof.
Words we all need to apply to our hearts and live by, especially now. This definitely speaks to my heart. This is something I need to work even harder at living by.
Friday, October 12, 2007
It's Friday evening. I am sitting her melancholy. My fall break is almost over and that's a sad thing. I know, I know... I've been off for awhile now but that has been with mom being sick and that has not been a fun experience. Mom is feeling better with the occasional cold feeling in her back sometimes accompanied by tingling in her arms. I have worried myself sick about this but her cardiologist and his nurse have assured me that they do not feel it is cardiac related because the vessel that is blocked is only a small one and it wouldn't give those kind of feelings. They said that it didn't sound like a stroke or blocked blood vessel in the neck (things other people had suggested) and she said it may very well be her blood sugar just feeling slightly different than it did before. She has had the cold feeling in her back for years with her blood sugar just not the feeling of it washing over her with tingling. The nurse told me that the fact that she had unrestricted blood flow now and actually has more blood could make her blood sugar feelings feel different. I pray (and ask that you do, too) that this is nothing major and it is related to the blood sugar. For those of you who do not know my mom, she is wonderful and I am not just saying that because she is my mom. She is the kind of mom that any child would want. She honestly is my best friend. I can't complain about my precious family because God has blessed me far too much with wonderful parents who have brought me up in the fear and admonition of the Lord. My brother isn't so bad either ;)
For those of you who know, I am still dealing with getting my wedding ring back. That has been an almost 3 month ordeal with the local Kay's store. I have sent the same ring (my wedding ring) back 7 times now. It began with just getting it sized and has resulted in the change of color on the band, a new shank, and now the fact that the jeweler cannot seem to get the indentions on the top of the ring fixed, they have been filled in with gold from attaching the new shank. There has been a young lady, unsure of her name, with blonde hair that has been very, very helpful. However, the older lady there was extremely hateful and talked down to my mother and I because she thought I was making a fuss about nothing. When I tried to explain what the problem with the indentions was, she said that the jeweler must have not thought it was that big of a deal because it was a small detail and I replied that if it were their wedding ring it would be a big deal. She was very smart with us and I have really had to pray about not getting highly upset about all this. So anyway, it came back wrong again and I am, once again, having to send it back.
Still no positive pregnancy test. But I can see what God is doing. He could foresee that this would all come up with my mom and that I would need my emotions and thoughts at full capacity to help. I praise Him for that and the healing that has given and is continuing to give to my mom and family members even now. I know that He Will bless us with a precious child when He sees fit. I trust His timing. I still ask that you pray for my friend Kim who recently lost her child and my friend Misty who is trying to conceive also.
I will leave you with some cute pics of my little Gavy. Enjoy!!!
Monday, October 08, 2007
My friend Ann, from VBS way back in high school, tagged me for this little game quite awhile back and I am just now getting around to it. Here are the rules...
I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.
1. Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
2. People who are tagged need to write their own blog (about their eight things) and post these rules. (**if you’re a non-blogger, you can email them!)
3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people (don't think I know 8 other blogs) to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
So, Random Facts / Habits:
1) I teach 5th and 6th grade math... when I began teaching I was asked what I didn't want to teach and I replied Math.... guess what.... I've taught 4 different grade levels of it since! haha
2) My hubby and I were engaged twice before we were married! What can I say... I struggle with decisions haha
3) My family (momma, dad, bro, hubby) are my whole heart and I love being with them. And I miss my best friend Danielle!
4) I love bright colored cars... my last one was yellow and my current is orange!
5) I loved red hair so much that I finally changed my hair to red about a year ago.
6) I have serious baby fever and I love spending time with my sis Jess and her lil man Gavy!
7) I am a computer geek hehe I love technology and wonder what I did before it!
8) I love driving and praising God... just listening to music and letting Jesus bottle my tears!
2) Emily (A blog friend of Kristi's that I don't really know but love reading her posts!)
Ps. If you guys don't have a blogger blog, you can always post through your myspace blog or through email! Just make sure to link me or email it to me so I can read your answers!
Saturday, October 06, 2007
So I lay here this morning contemplating myself. I don't feel that I have been the Christian that I should be in so many ways. How easily we forget God's goodness and mercy! Most people laugh at me when I say stuff like this to them, but for me, I feel as though I could be so much closer to God right now that I have let myself be. I could do so much more than I let myself.
After watching my mom go through all that she's been through this week, I see that we never truly know what's going to happen from one moment to the next. Granted, I have known this for some time, but after going through scary situations and depending solely and totally on Jesus, you really learn this fact. I ask that you continue to Pray for my mom and her health. She is out of the hospital again (this time was a scare and then an overnight observation). She seems to be feeling much better.
I also desire your Prayers. Many of you know that I struggle with anxiety issues. One of the major anxiety issues that I deal with is death. It really climaxed with the death of Danielle and has been present daily ever since. This has been a major Prayer for me and those that I love over the past couple of years. (Has it really been almost 2 years since you made me laugh Danielle?!) Getting that 2:30 am phone call a couple of weeks ago about mom again set off some of the feelings and emotions that I had worked through. I ask that you Pray for me about these anxiety issues. Without God's help, I would already be a basket case.
There's someone else going through some hard times still and yet this person and her family are such an inspiration of faith... Baby Maddie. This is the little girl that I posted about a week or so ago. I was reading her blog today and looking back over the past few months of her struggle and I found this link. This is a short video clip of Maddie saying "Thank You For Praying!" If this doesn't bless your heart, I don't know what will! I saved the video and uploaded it here so that you could watch it. I encourage you to follow the link above to Maddie's blog and read about here.