As I was reviewing my blog I realized that I had not mentioned my friend who had IVF recently. Unfortunately, she found out this past Monday (the school day before mom got sick) that neither of the two eggs survived. She has made peace with the situation and is doing ok. However, it breaks my heart to know she is going through this. Please, remember her when you Pray. We know that if God wants her to have another baby, not even being told that she can't get pregnant will stop Him. He will bless them in various ways that we can't even begin to comprehend. Please keep this Prayer request close to your hearts.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Good Morning To All:
I am writing this morning to catch most of you up to date on what has been going on with my mom. Keep in mind, she is doing much better now but she still needs your Prayers on a daily basis.
On Monday, mom and I went to the doctor after school and found out the results of the various blood tests that had been ran to check us out. We found out first of all that all of mom's test came back good (including her cardiac tests) except for her blood levels. She was told that she was a 7.4 and suppose to go no lower than a 7 before needing a blood transfusion. The doctor put her on Slow Fe and a new vitamin called amni3 (I think) to help her get her iron levels and blood levels up. I found out that I am having issues with my thyroid (which might explain a number of things with me) and was scheduled for an ultrasound of my thyroid and put on meds as well. We left and picked up our prescriptions at the local pharmacy and went on home to rest up for the next day at work.
I fell asleep immediately following my arrival home and slept until mom called at about 11pm. I told her goodnight in our regular way "tell dad and Billy I love them and I love you, too... if you need me, call me. Love you, bye." I slept until 2:23 am when my cell phone rang. If you know me you know that I have serious anxieties with phone calls like this and hearing about sicknesses/problems with my family members. I jumped out of bed and began to try to gather myself. It was my brother who proceeded to say that my mom had been taken to the ER because she was sick to her stomach. He said that mom didn't even want him to call at first because she knew it would worry me but she told him to go ahead and to tell me that she was ok. I threw on my clothes and left, all the while thinking that she had to be very sick because mom hates going to the hospital.
I arrived at PCH shortly (and it was though Jesus had escorted me there because I made it safely and quickly). I walked in and my brother was in the waiting area. They had taken mom back and dad was with her. I sat there for a few minutes and then I went to the doors and pushed the button to get in. Billy followed. Mom was laying in a hospital bed with dad sitting beside her. She looked sooo tired. I asked her what had happened and she told me that she had felt a hold/cold sensation start at her feet and move up to her head. She said that it was so strong that she felt herself leaving her body. She also said that she was so weak that she couldn't even lift her arms. I immediately asked if she had felt pressure or pain in her chest and she said no. She didn't think it was a heart attack because she didn't hurt any or feel any pressure. When she had blockage around her heart before, she had tons of pressure and felt as though she couldn't breathe if she walked too far or did too much. She had felt that way for a long while before ever getting checked out and having her 3 way bypass open heart surgery in October of 2004.
The blood work that they had completed showed that her enzymes did not show that a heart attack had occurred. Her EKG however did show activity. (We later found out that this was because she had open heart surgery and that EKG's never look "normal" again after that. Each patient has their own normal baseline after surgery which may show up on an EKG as abnormal but technically be normal for the patient.) The doctor, who I must say was extremely laid back, told her that her blood levels were low and that they were going to admit her and give her a transfusion after he spoke with her cardiologist in Lexington. However, after he spoke with Dr. Skinner's partner, he said that they wanted mom to come to Central Baptist and have her heart checked out just in case since she had a history of heart problems. They didn't want to just send her there in an ambulance, they wanted to send her in a helicopter. Mom said that she had never been in the air before and asked if any of us could go with her but since they are so small, we obviously couldn't.
I left the hospital at about 4:30 am and by the time I pulled onto the road, the helicopter was landing on the launch pad across the street. I flew home and picked up my bag that Michael had packed for me. I had told him to stay at home and that I would be fine. I had figured that there would be limited room in her room and that they would not let all of the family there. I knew that I wanted to stay right there by her so he would just be sitting there waiting with rest of us. He obviously protested but eventually agreed and said to call him asap and let him know what was going on and that he would be there if I needed him. I told him goodbye in tears and asked him to keep Praying for her to be ok.
I left my apartment at 5am and flew to Lexington. I had my trouble lights on and made pretty good timing until I got close and started to run into the early morning commuters going to work. I was on the phone most of the way there and when I wasn't on the phone, I was talking and crying out to God. I was so scared. My aunt, who lives in Lexington, had already arrived at the hospital and taken care of mom's paperwork. That was truly a blessing. She was sitting outside waiting for the helicopter as I drove and she was right there as soon as mom got to the hospital.
I arrived pretty soon after mom did at around 6:15am. I raced up to her room and she was sitting there laughing with my aunt. She said she didn't feel as badly and was ready to go home. HA! Dad and Billy arrived about 45 minutes after me because they had stopped by the house to get some clothes and things and then left. I know that I drove Billy insane by calling him every 2 minutes the entire way.
The doctor came in for a minute, no joke, and said that they wanted to do a heart cath to make sure that everything was fine in mom's heart. They took her first to have an echo and then we waited for hours to hear again to see when they would be taking her for the cath. A few hours after arriving, mom was sick of sitting in bed and wanted to sit in a chair. We helped her to a chair and she was sitting there talking and laughing. Immediately, her face went pale and she looked blank. I asked if she was ok and she said she was doing it again. I ran to the nurses station and got the nurse and she helped her back to bed and we were all asked to step out while they went in. They put nitroglycerin tablets under her tongue and when we finally got to go back in, she was laying there resting. She said that the sensation had already went away. They started her on a nitroglycerin drip (which, by the way, causes a huge headache in the back of your head) and told us to keep a check on her. They informed us about the EKG (the above information I mentioned) and said that they were pretty sure she had not had a heart attack. We were pretty convinced that it had to be some sort of medication interaction or her body reacting to having such low blood.
We finally called mamaw in the early afternoon hours and she said that she would be there soon. We had not wanted to scare her so early and without having any idea of what was going on. We were told that her heart cath would probably be the next morning which meant we'd be staying the night. A few hours later, mom had the sensation again but a very quick version of it. It came on and was gone in a matter of minutes. The nurses had by then turned off the nitro drip and said that if she had another they were going to turn it back on. I got a little stressed and told them that we were worried that her blood levels may be causing this. I asked if they had checked and they said no. They sent someone to check them and found that they were now at a 6.8. They said that they were going to give her blood and if it didn't help or if it got low again quickly that they would have to do an upper and lower GI scope to see if something was making her bleed. (This scared us tremendously. Internal bleeding may be connected to some serious diseases.) So they ordered 2 units of blood for a transfusion. Michael and his mother wanted to donate the blood for mom but it happened so fast that there wasn't enough time. They tested her blood the next morning after the transfusion and found that it had went up to a 9.7. You could see evidence of it in her face because her color was really well and her cheeks were so rosy. This was really noticeable because she had been hearing for a long time that she looked "jaundice" and pale. (We later found that these were symptoms of severe anemia.) Dad stayed with mom that night in her room since only one person was suppose to, while Billy, mamaw, and I slept in the waiting room 2 doors down. I was up and down all night feeling ill because I was worrying that something was causing her to bleed internally, even though there were no signs of blood coming from her body in any way. Billy, mamaw, and I had special prayer for mom and I continued to pray the entire night when I would wake up. God truly gave me peace throughout that night because I honestly felt like I was going to start panicking. I got up at 4am and checked on mom and dad. They were sleeping. I then asked her nurse about her and he said everything was going fine. I was up and at 'em at 6am.
They had told us that if her blood levels went up they would for sure do the heart cath. So, we waited all Wed. morning for her turn in the cath lab. They came and got us and started on her at 1:10. I asked how long the procedure would take because I had blocked out a lot of that from the last time. They told us that it should be no more than 30 minutes unless they had to fix something.
Sitting in that waiting area was like being dunked in cold water. I could remember the last time we were in there waiting to hear about her heart and finding out that she was going straight into surgery. I remember losing it in the bathroom and Billy coming in to help me deal. I could remember walking to the "garden" area outside and calling ever Christian I knew to ask them to Pray for her to be ok. It was definitely a flood of emotions for me. I sat there so sick to my stomach and ill for almost an hour. I thought maybe that they had gotten started late and that was what was taking so long, but I was wrong. Dr. Skinner came out and asked for the Brittain family. He must have seen the stress on my face because he asked my relation to her and then told me she was fine. He talked directly to me for a few minutes and said that they had found 2 out of the 3 bypasses blocked again. One bypass was blocked 100 % and the other was blocked 90%. He said that the bypass to her left main (the widow maker) which had been so urgent in her surgery, was totally clear and unblocked. That was a blessing. He explained that the 100% blocked bypass didn't really serve a purpose and that he had left it alone but the 90% blocked bypass had been making her experience the sensations. He said that the 90% blocked bypass and the low blood count was a double whammy on her making her feel so bad. He placed a stint in the bypass and said that she was doing fine. He gave us a picture showing the artery before and after the stint. (I'll try to add that to this post at a later time). I asked why they had gotten blocked again so quickly after only 3 years. He told me that it was genetics and that she would have to be extremely strict on her diet, exercise, and cholesterol to ensure that she was keeping them unblocked. It amazes me that genetics can make you so susceptible to heart disease. I mean, I get it, I understand the science of it, but wow.
About 10 minutes later, we were back in her room with her and Dr. Skinner had already informed her of what had occurred. She rested on her back until about 4pm before they took the (I can't remember the name) shaft that had aided in the heart cath, out of her leg. She had to lay flat because the piece could have punctured her artery if she had have moved around. She then had to lay at a 30 degree angle until 8pm to ensure nothing aggravated her artery and that her leg was ok. We were told that they were going to take her blood the next morning (Thursday) and that if it was the same or higher, she would get to go home. Dad and mamaw left and came on home and my aunt stayed with Billy and I until early evening. Billy and I spent the night in mom's room (even though only one of us were suppose to). The waiting room had been empty and he had fallen asleep in two chairs before getting up in his sleep to make a bed in the floor. The nurses were really nice about it ( I was glad because some of the nurses prior to this night wouldn't have been). I was glad that we were there together because I would have been worried about him sleeping alone in a waiting room. I slept in a chair that can be made into a bed though I was afraid to make it into one because I was afraid of the room it might take up. One of the night nurses came to me in the middle of the night and woke me up and laid it out for me and told me to rest. That was a blessing. That chair felt like a king sized bed to me after sleeping sitting up the night before.
We got up Thursday (yesterday) morning and they took mom's blood. The physician's assistant came in and told mom that everything looked good and that if her blood levels came back the same or elevated she would be going home. I got ready and packed up and the nurse came in a couple of hours later and told us that mom's blood level had went up to a 10.7 ( I think that's right)! Praise be to God! We were later released and after eating grilled chicken sandwiches from Arby's we headed home. We stopped at my apartment to get my laptop and some clothes and then at the pharmacy to get mom's new prescription of plavex and arrived home at around 1:30pm.
If you have read this entire post, wow! I didn't mean to stretch the story out so long but I wanted to have these details recorded for my record. I still left plenty of things out but I think this is sufficient. I feel so blessed that my mom is laying in bed a couple of rooms away from me this morning and that she is doing well. God has been so good to us in every situation, especially throughout these past few years with mom. He showed us her blockages and remedied them through open heart surgery 3 years ago and He answered my specific prayers about specific body healing on my mom this week by letting us catch the blockages and low blood. How amazing is our Heavenly Father, that He would be so gracious and kind to watch out for my mom in such a beautiful way. She (and the whole family) credits all of this to Him! Praise You Jesus for being our protector and keeper.
I would like to ask that all of you reading would continue to lift my mom up in prayer each and every day. Pray for her strength as she lives in a healthy manner and pray for her heart and the rest of her body that it is strengthened each day. Thank you all for your love and support and I pray that God's mercies will rain down upon you and that you will be completely drenched in His loving grace!
The above website talks about a precious baby who is very, very sick. I am short on time but I will link you to my "blog friend" Emily's blog to read about this. It is so important that you Pray for this precious baby!
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Here are the sermon notes that our pastor gave today from his father's sermon on Salvation back in 1962. This was the year that my pastor was saved. I loved these. Enjoy!
To understand Salvation you must realize:
What Salvation Is Not:
1. reformation (meaning you have to get everything perfect in your life before you can get Saved.)
2. confirmation (you have to confirm your reservations to Heaven yourself, no one else can do it for you.
3. just information (you can miss Salvation by 18 inches... the inches from your head to your heart.)
4. not a demonstration (you have to be true and you can't just put on a show and "act" like you are a Christian.)
5. a denomination (as long as you are Saved by Jesus Christ and believe that God sent Him to die to pay your ransom, it doesn't matter what denomination you are or how well you represent that denomination.)
What Salvation Is:
1. A change of mind
2. Repentance towards God
3. Faith in Jesus Christ
4. When you agree with God about all He's said about you and about Himself
5. A new walk (We are new creatures in Christ!)
6. A commitment of Faith in Jesus Christ alone
You Should Be Saved Because:
1. Of the increasing power of sin (sin is more present everyday and can harm you more each day.)
2. Of the present influence of sin (no one will go to hell alone, they will have to drag someone down with them.)
3. Of the expanding penalty of sin (we are all closer to death today than we have ever been.)
My pastor added the following:
3 circles of Salvation:
1st circle is the circle of despair that we are walking in before we get Saved.
2nd circle is the circle that we move to which turns opposite of the 1st one and that we walk in after we get saved.
3rd circle is the the circle we will merge into when we get to Heaven
Saturday, September 22, 2007
One of my most favorite times ever is Saturday evening. What makes this time so special you may ask? Well, nothing actually. Just the fact that I get to relax. I love coming home after shopping with my family on Saturday morning and just relaxing. By this time, I usually have my house clean and everything caught up. It's so nice to hear the silence and to be able to relax. Today while relaxing I read some of the book of Romans. Here's some of the key verses that stuck out to me. Some of them I have seen and heard a million times, but they really stuck a chord with my heart.
Romans 2:11 For there is no respect of persons with God.
We are no better than anyone else no matter what we possess in earthly possessions!
9 What then? are we better than they? No, in no wise: for we have before proved both Jews and Gentiles, that they are all under sin; 10 As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:
25 Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God;
24 But for us also, to whom it shall be imputed, if we believe on him that raised up Jesus our Lord from the dead;
25 Who was delivered for our offences, and was raised again for our justification.
19 For as by one man's disobedience many were made sinners, so by the obedience of one shall many be made righteous.
15 What then? shall we sin, because we are not under the law, but under grace? God forbid.
(We shouldn't sin just because we know we are already going to Heaven. Salvation brings about repentance of sins and a "want" to do better.)
16 Know ye not, that to whom ye yield yourselves servants to obey, his servants ye are to whom ye obey; whether of sin unto death, or of obedience unto righteousness?
17 But God be thanked, that ye were the servants of sin, but ye have obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine which was delivered you.
18 Being then made free from sin, ye became the servants of righteousness.
19 I speak after the manner of men because of the infirmity of your flesh: for as ye have yielded your members servants to uncleanness and to iniquity unto iniquity; even so now yield your members servants to righteousness unto holiness.
20 For when ye were the servants of sin, ye were free from righteousness.
21 What fruit had ye then in those things whereof ye are now ashamed? for the end of those things is death.
22 But now being made free from sin, and become servants to God, ye have your fruit unto holiness, and the end everlasting life.
23 For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
(We pay for our sin with death but with Jesus we get a free gift to live forever!)
If you want that gift.... Pray and ask Jesus to come into your heart and to forgive you of your sins. Tell Him you want to be his child and that you believe that He died upon a rugged cross for you. Accept Him into your heart. Don't worry about not being perfect, none of us are. God will help you do things the right way. Don't change to accept God, accept God to change!
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Remember my friend at work who just had IVF? Well, she went to the doctor on Monday to have an ultrasound to find out if she is pregnant with twins or just one baby. They had implanted 2 eggs and when they looked on the US, they could only see one yolk sack and no embryo. She is obviously devastated, as most of us would be. Please pray for God's will in this situation. That little baby may still be there and just may be smaller. Please pray that if that scenario is in God's will that it will be. She is such a good girl and wants another child so badly. It breaks my heart for her. Just please keep her in your prayers and pray for God's comforting arms to embrace her each time she begins to feel overwhelmed with this situation. We all know that no matter what, God is in control and knows what is best. Thanks to all and I love each of you!
Ps. Continue to pray for my hubby and I on our baby journey.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Well... today is day 8 with no visit from my monthly friend, but this is the last day without because she has visited. Thank you for all your prayers and words of encouragement. This month just wasn't in the cards for Michael and I. We are both disappointed but we know that God will bless us with a child soon in His time. Please Pray for us that things will work out soon. I praise God for giving me some sort of answer because I was emotionally torn up from not knowing.
Saturday, September 08, 2007
So it's Saturday afternoon. I am laying in bed. No, not because I am being lazy, but because I fell last night while walking through a dark parking lot. I twisted both ankles and now I can barely walk. I am going to attempt to get moving here in a bit. I can't stay here all day by myself. I have to get out : ) Please pray that they heal quickly.
The main reason that I am writing is to update everyone, I am five days late and still showing a negative test result. I am never late like this so I am wondering. The health department told me to come back in a week and a half or two weeks if I still hadn't received a visit. So guys, Pray that this is it. I know if this is what God has in store for Michael and I, that I will eventually see a positive test. I love you all!
Ps. Any thoughts or advice are welcome email me at email@example.com
Monday, September 03, 2007
It's official............ my friend and coworker is pregnant. Her IVF worked! I am so thankful to God for her. She was really worried, but God is faithful and He answered her prayer.
I know that our time is coming. I know God has a precious child up there right now just for Michael and I. But I have to admit. I am growing weary. All of you who have tried for years and years, go ahead and laugh. I guess I thought that it would happen more quickly than this. All weekend I held myself back from testing and I finally did this morning, day 28. My results were negative. I have been really hopeful that this would be it, and still deep down I sorta still am. Until I get a visit, I am not fully convinced. But...... my request yet again is for all of you that read this blog to please, continue to remember Michael and I in Prayer. Pray for God's will in this situation. And any advice would be welcomed. Email at.... firstname.lastname@example.org
I Love You All!!!